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Keeping the Devil Out
Janet's example would have surely struck Jung owing to its
resemblance to his mother's having to sit behind her father to keep
the devil out while he composed his sermons.
John Kerr |
When my analysis began, Jung adhered to Janet and sat behind me
to keep the devil out. I grasped at devils, some longed-for flesh inclined me.
I was a cracked mirror's view of Mother nothing coalesced no wounds adhesed.
Demanding obtuse angles, I refused direct view. Therapy occurred behind me.
My skin a prison, he labeled it a case of hysterical delirium. They all did in those days
given a woman patient. Each session, hours in the chair, he confined me.
He thought to hear about paternal rape, drunken sibling orgies, blood
between my infant thighs. I did not satisfy him. Mama had refined me.
He never asked what I'd grown up knowing about genitalia male and female,
how man enters woman. He had no idea Mother's tyranny was meant to blind me.
Such a waste. He presumed all the wrong afflictions. His word associations began father,
brother, uncle. The world held pivot on a penis when Mama was who bound me.
A Sabine, I am from a matrilineal culture no Freudian understands. Jung grasped
Father's raised hand, a child's hidden flesh exposed to fury. In this way, he maligned me.
Pamela Moore Dionne
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